Parallel Waters
by John Streamas
Parallel Waters
My grandfather’s life was called a “storied past,”
as if he might have had alternatively an unstoried past,
as if, whether or not he had free will, he had two
paths to follow, one storied and the other not,
or even as if he might have followed, or even
did follow, both paths, and the only past we noticed
was the storied one, while the submerged and unstoried
one was noticeable only to our own unstoried selves,
flowing down a parallel river of time, or maybe
not parallel but meandering, though the selves
and the rivers meet at the end, just as if to prove
that even parallel waters eventually meet,
converging and blending clarities, and this suggests
that the storied and unstoried lives may be alike,
may even be indistinguishable, that the second self
is the first one, not even a shadow of the first one,
though a meeting of parallels is proof of the mortality
of linearity, of curvatures and disruptions,
of the interventions of the jagged, a proof
my grandfather would approve, who needed no
fancy lines about crooked timbers of humanities
to know the crookednesses in time, the frequent bumpings
together of parallels, the confluences of waters
and bloods and humors, the gentle clashes of shadows
more palpable than Venn circles, and the hollows
filled with the stones of his stories open to sun
and rain, to the ends of time, to the ends of times
and of half times, for desire coils endings back
to beginnings, and stories start over, and river and sun
and old man all come together to die and be born.
Born in Tokyo, John Streamas now teaches ethnic studies and American studies at Washington State University. His scholarly research examines environmental and racial temporalities in nuclear culture. His poems and stories are published or forthcoming in sites such as Asian American Literary Review, New Letters, Akashic Books’ Fri-Sci Fi website, Rigorous, and Spillway.